I did get sick...

I had a cold all weekend. I'm still tired. My head hurts. I just love to complain... I really really want some cheesecake...and thank goodness I was browsing different blogs and found a low-fat pumpkin one. ;) So..tonight after I teach aerobics, I will be running to Brookshires to get the stuff to make this cake! I am craving it and WILL eat it soon.

My older sister is going back to school! I'm so happy for her. We might actually take a class together...awkward! lol. Just kidding. I think it will be great. I am very proud of her for doing what she wants (and not wanting to do something insane!!! haha)

My nose is all peeley(whoa..im far too lazy to look up the spelling of this word. I want to say that the skin around my nose is falling off and it looks like I have boogers. GROSS) and gross. I'm so stopped up and I sound awful. I answer phones at work and I'm sure people think I am annoying.

I'm going to see Push Play next Friday in Houston. I'm going with Lacy and I'm pretty excited. She actually won a contest one time to go hang out with them for a private concert thing. There were supposed to be about 20 people there but only 3 showed up (one of them was Lacy and one of them was a friend that went with her) She drove about 7 hours then so this 4hour trip is looking great to her! She really likes them...I've only listened to a few things, but I'm still excited!!! Tickets weren't too expensive.

I'm trying to make a decision about something else. I made plans to do something...but they were up in the air and no details had been sorted out. The people involved were not 100% sure if they could go and now something else has popped up. I REALLY want to do plan 1...but the family is super involved with the 2nd plan. Its not super important that I do plan 2, but it is something new. Plan 1 is something I was really looking forward to. I was a little worried that it wouldn't work out so I didn't get too excited. And now I'm the one not making it work. I feel a little guilty and sad. I want to go and I want everyone to be happy. ...someone make my decisions please! That would make my life so much easier.

I'm thinking about weighing tonight. I kind of feel like I need to start over because I didn't write anything down and I still can't find those old measurements. I need to get organized but this full time job is a LIFE-SUCKER! I feel like I'm falling apart. I never wanted this to be full time, yet I stayed because the money part sounded so good. Should have thought it through....bleh!

once again...someone take over my life for me. Like in the episode of Friends when Rachel tells Monica that she is in charge of making all of Rachel's love life decisions...although, I guess she ended up doing what she wanted....I probably would too.

I need to figure out how to put pictures on here....I have some really good ones of Tony seeing 'papas pairpwane' a few weeks ago, framing hanley, and a couple of Erica's games.

I guess that is it for today. hasta luego (did I spell that right? hope so...)

stop sneezing, self!

Bad/Good week. Very undecided about how I feel right now. Probably because I am bored out of my mind at work. One boss didn't come in at all and the other boss left at 11:30. I hate that they get to do that...while I sit here bored. Sure, I could come up with some stuff to do, but geeze, I just want to leave.

bad-I gained a pound.
Looks like I'm not leaving Ambar again...
I've sneexed a hundred times today and my throat is getting sore...I really don't want to get sick right now. That would be awful.

good-It is Friday. That means I made it through the week.
I'm sore which means I got a decent work out.
It is yamboree time. Good food/socializing/environment/parades..yay!
I got paid yesterday!

I was hoping this would take up a lot more of my time. I still have 50 minutes here at work. I've been playing free cell all day so I guess I'll play a game and try and think of something else to say.

Nope, didn't help. Although I could tell you a story about more work drama-but seriously I'm sick of all of that stuff too so I think I will just leave it for the birds.

Happy weekend to you!

almost free

I just talked to my boss about leaving. He said that he already has someone he is thinking about hiring....so it should be fairly quick. I am so happy that I am ending this chapter in my book. I am exhausted from all that I am trying to tackle right now. I am ready to slow down and get back into a good school mode!

I plan on teaching aerobics still and really working hard on Mary Kay. So many people in my unit make good money every month and I am jealous! I just need more time and now I will be able to focus on it a little more. I am also thinking about getting back into some personal training. Actually, I know I will. I'm just waiting to see what happens to my schedule. I am so excited.

I don't have much else to say right now. I feel so free...well, almost.

new shoes HURT!

I've got 20 minutes to waste before I head home for the day.

I forgot to weigh myself on Thursday night at the gym. SO I weighed myself at home and BAM..i weighed about 12 more pounds than the week before. I'm guessing the scales are very different and I pray that the scale at home is broke :(

I will weigh tomorrow though. Still didn't find my old measurements but I will go ahead and measure away tonight and post some of that fun stuff.

Work is bleh. I'm so ready to leave. I think I will tell my boss it is time to find my replacement ASAP. I should have never come back after the little incident a couple of weeks ago...I just felt so bad for leaving my boss hanging. He has been really great to me and I appreciate him a lot. So, I will be as professional as possible and stay for a little while longer.

I got to see Framing Hanley and Transmit Now again on Saturday. I love music. I am so glad that I have been able to see so many different artists the past few months. I will keep going to concerts as long as I am able to...I love it.

This week is the Yamboree lol. I'm going to be honest and tell you that I will cheat on my diet. I will probably eat a corndog. And I will probably eat a funnel cake. I have to. It is just part of the Yamboree. I will do an extra ab workout to cancel it out I guess. I am looking forward to the atmosphere Gilmer has this time of year. I like small town life....as long as I have my bestie in Austin to escape to ;) love you Abbey!

This rain needs to go away for just a little bit. I wish the sun would shine a little for the Yamboree. I also want to go to six flags before Fright Fest ends and this rain is killing my plans! I also love the rain at the same time so I should stop complaining...

only ten more minutes....hmm What to say? What to say?....

I have a digital camera now. I love it. I don't use it constantly but I like having one just in case a "kodak" moment presents itself. My computer was damaged in the last big storm though so I haven't been able to upload anything lately. I have an extended warranty on the computer but I've almost convinced myself to go buy a charger just to see if that is the problem. I hear getting a computer fixed (even with a warranty) is a pain in the butt. I don't feel like causing any pain to any part of my body right now....but hopefully I will post some pictures soon. Mainly of my nephew :) he is so sweet and cute!

Definite plans for January-one last full semester at TJC. Working part time for dad (teaching aerobics) and possibly another part time job. (Retail or something like that) I will either be living at home or in my aunt's house in Tyler. Summer of next year is one big mystery for now.

And I only have about 5 minutes now so I will blog later.

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I am so sore today! I had 3 people in class last night (pretty good number for the Wednesday crowd), we worked really hard and had so much fun. I think they enjoyed it and I hope they come back every week. I realized last night when I was driving home that I did not drink any water at all yesterday. Is that horrible or what? I usually do really good with water. I have no idea what I was thinking yesterday. Today I plan on drinking a lot more...

I have been so busy at work today and I love it. There are two doors to this office down here and people walk in and out like they own this place....so I am trying to solve this little problem. I closed one door and it seems to help a little. Every now and then some bozo will still open it, but I always make sure to close it back. Maybe I should start locking it. (I won't though. I really don't want to make anyone mad around here.) I hate cell phones. My boss called me twice today asking me to dig up some old reports and I had to ask him to repeat himself about 3 times. I just hope he doesn't think I was not paying attention...

I have made yet another decision for this weight loss journey...I am going to measure myself. waist, hips, arms, legs, etc... I NEED to lose some actual weight but I know that if I track the inches as well, I might keep myself motivated. I measured myself right when I started working out with a personal trainer and never took new measurements. Hopefully I can find that old stuff so I can post that and the current measurements. Sounds weird but today I actually feel toned. I know that stuff like that doesn't happen over night but I feel good today. :)

I think I'm going to heat up my veggies and lean pocket. I just started buying the just for one frozen vegetables and I like them a lot. I've tried the broccoli & cheese and the Italian seasoned broccoli and carrots. If you do weight watchers-both of these are zero points. Not sure about the lean pocket though.....

Funny side note-I work for a company that sells drilling chemicals to to oil companies. I keep up with all the engineering information. I print off well reports and do daily and weekly reports. blah blah blah...to the point now. There is a well we have going on right now called Woolley and every morning when I get the email I start singing that song "she's a wooty. A white girl with a booty" It is horrible. I have only heard that song one time, but it is stuck in my head forever. And until this Woolley well closes, I will probably sing it every single stupid day! argh

I ate a cheeseburger :'(

Why? I don't know. I enjoyed it while it lasted of course but I felt immediate guilt afterwards. I felt horrible. I have been so good lately. Well, with food anyway. Mom and I aren't walking this week...she is out of town. I am stressed/tired with all this work junk. bleh. I know-it is just an excuse and I have been making enough of those lately.

I almost weighed myself last night. I wanted to cheat and see if I had maybe lost anything, but I didn't. Go me! I hope tomorrow is not super depressing. Maybe I will sweat enough of it off tonight and tomorrow night in class that I will lose something.

I only drank 2 diet sodas yesterday. One at lunch and one last night after class...and dang, there was actually one yesterday morning. UGH! UGH! UGH! What am I thinking?!

I really hope work gets someone in here to take my place by the end of November. That will be lots of money saved (the only reason I stayed after my wonderful incident) and will give me a month(before school starts) to get into a gym with a personal trainer again. I was really seeing results when I worked with a trainer and I don't mind spending the money on that kind of thing. I used to spend it on junk food every single day so how bad can it be?

Work update-big boss called yesterday to speak with the woman and she obviously didn't look happy. I have no idea what is going to happen around here. I am calm about it all though. I prayed about all of it and all I can do is sit here and keep doing my job. And that is what I will do.

Tonight I teach aerobics in Gilmer. This class is practically dwindling away and I was about 1 click away from removing it from our schedule. Last week only one participant showed up and was thanking me so much for having class. She said that she has felt so good the past month that she has been working out at our gym and would love to see more classes. I told her that we needed to get some more people in there to keep the class. As I was pulling out the parking lot she flagged me down and said she talked to 3 ladies in the gym who said they would come if we bumped the class to 6. WOW! Talk about proactive. I love that she has the drive to workout. She did not have to talk to anyone and she did. I wish I had that motivation to work out more. And obviously I can't cancel the class after that. So now I think I will embrace the task of getting more people in there.

Starting at 6 means I will be late to Institute (church) but I guess late is better than never. I went for the first time last week and felt so good. It has been so hard to make myself go on Wednesday nights but once I was there, I knew I was supposed to be. So another goal of mine is to go every week even if I am late. And I also want to make sure I read the assignments every week. Guess what?! I read more than half of it already. I will probably read some more at work today. Not the best atmosphere to study the scriptures, but it will do.

Mom comes home tonight. I am very excited about seeing her. Dad and I have been alone at the house and it has been so quiet. My mom is not noisy herself....its just that she keeps the tv turned on and loud lol.

I am in serious blog mode...I usually don't have that much to say but yesterday and today's entries look like novels. I won't bore you anymore with my mundane life ;) Plus, I have to get back to my "petty" job of printing stuff! I wouldn't want the woman to get upset with me ;) lol

rawr..this one is long

SO I weighed myself on Thursday night. I pretty much freaked out. I gained back about 7 pounds this past month because I quit teaching aerobics. Serves me right though. I knew I should have just made it work with my schedule. I really don't want to put my weight on here but I will give you the last digit until I'm ready to admit all three numbers. :( It ends in 7. So hopefully this Thursday it will end in 5 or less ;). I will def let you know...

Thursday night I taught kickboxing at the Quitman gym, weighed myself, and then rode one of the bikes for about 15 minutes. It started storming but I figured it would pass over quickly...boy was I wrong. I drove home in the rain (not too bad) without any problems until about a 1/2 mile away from home. There was a huuuge tree down in the road. I was so ticked off...this happens ALL the time where I live but I was so ready to get home and sleep! I turned around to try and different way home and found more trees. I get no service out where I live so I found a 'tree-free' zone to try and send a text to my sister, who lives about 30 miles away from home, to tell her to inform my parents that I was trapped. Then I prayed that the text went through and prayed that I would make it home safely. I'm happy to say that I made it home okay after about 2 hours of driving around. Thank goodness I filled my car up that day ;)

Friday morning was possibly one of the most horrible mornings ever. I learned something from the experience but it sucked while it lasted. A woman that works for the the company I work for (she is from the main office in Louisiana) told me she was packing up my office to move me. I told her that my boss needed to approve it and then I would move. She pulled the honey card...ugh! 'Honey, I don't need permission. This is my job.' Actually, no. It is not her job to play musical office chairs. I told her I was not moving and she started in on me. She told me my job was unimportant and that I needed to get up. 'You do petty shit like answer the phones and print stuff.' Excuse my language by the way. I am quoting her so you can feel my annoyance. I honestly had no idea what to say. I am not confrontational in any way and I had no comeback. As soon as she left...I cried my eyes out. I emailed my boss to tell him I was sick and I left at 9:15. Did I mention I got there at 8:30? I decided to quit Monday morning and came in to talk to my boss around 9. He apologized personally and for the company and told me to take the day off, with pay, and think about staying. So, here I am. At work. Blogging. The only reason I stayed was because of 1.) money and 2.) my boss Mike. I am still leaving in January to go to school but I will be sticking around until then.

School...I am NOT moving in January. I talked to advisor yesterday and decided that it will be better if I stay one more semester at TJC. I will be graduating with an Associate of Arts Degree in Teaching by the end of summer. woot woot. Kind of slow but I'm okay with that. I took this semester off and have 4 elective classes (which is basically another semester) so I am technically right on schedule. ;) This will give me more time to really pick a school and a place to live. I also want more time to figure out my school finances.

another good thing-I opened a savings account. My grandparents have been nagging me about opening one but I never have the time. So yesterday, while I was being paid to hang out, I took care of it. I am planning on being more organized with money, time, exercising, work, myself!, school, and everything else involving me! Selfish, I know :) lol.

I know this is waay too much info. I just felt the need to blog it all out. I am feeling pretty good today even though my work situation is not the best. I won't be here for much longer so I can endure it. I will endure it! and I will enjoy the money. After all, that is all a job is...kind of. ;)

oh yeah...the company blocked facebook from the computers :( Kind of sad, but I wasted too much time on there anyway. Oh yeah...my computer got fried in the storm last week. I have an extended warranty on it, so hopefully I will get it up and running again. I hope. Oh yeah, I am loving Lois and Clark. I will definitely be purchasing the rest of the series. I love Superman. I also got my 75 cent movie in yesterday. half.com is so addicting. Oh yeah..just wanted to say it again since I said it about 4 times.

Weigh-in in two days! argh :( scary....