only read if you're bored...

so...I'm trying to have a positive attitude about EVERYTHING right now. It is something I find hard to do at times. I guess having a bad attitude and seeing all the negative in a situation is actually much easier than seeing the good. I've been so stressed the past couple months for a few reasons...
not being able to pay my grandparents for utilities
owing my grandparents money for the past few months
going back to school
being basically broke
having no job skills
getting ZERO return calls on any applications I filled out
normal friend stress
adjusting to a new environment
trying to get the guts to attend church in Tyler (I've been driving to Gilmer every weekend)
and a few other petty things.

I KNOW I am complaining about things that aren't that important but this is my life-so it is what I think about every day; consequently, making it important to me.

Today I pretty much crossed everything out on this list. My parents have been giving my grandparents money for utilities...I had no idea. So now I don't owe them money from the past couple of months. I can just start paying now and keep up to date. I think stressing about everything has made me so tired lately. I've been forcing myself to get out of bed and go to school-babysit-or whatever needed to be done. I am just so exhausted. I know it is just a part of growing up and taking on new responsibilities so I've tried to be patient with my situation but more importantly---I've tried to be patient with myself.

I finally got a phone call about an application that I filled out in January and I'm hopeful that it will all work out. If it doesn't, I'll be okay. I've been babysitting and I think I can survive on just that little bit of money--I've just been hoping to save some money. He called me around 11 and left a message--I called him around 1 and left a message. I hope he calls me back. I'm crossing my fingers so hard...makes typing pretty difficult ;)

I finally went to church in Tyler last Sunday. I've gone to a couple of FHEs and finally feeling confident with myself. I'm so glad I finally went. I have already recieved a calling....I'll tell you more about it after its official. I'm pretty excited and nervous of course. That is normal for everything new with me though.

I've got to get started on some things before I go to Gilmer tonight to teach aerobics. It is my last class since we are cancelling the Wednesday class. Not enough participation and the gym isn't making money from it. Of course-a good instrucor would advertise the class and get students--I just don't want to keep driving to Gilmer for that every week. I'm actually thinking abaout joining a gym or getting a personal trainer. I need a job first....so we'll see how it goes.

Sorry my blog was so boring. I usually read over them and edit but I'm out of time. :) enjoy